the simple life of me

Goodbye blogger,Hello Tumblr

2010-05-14T18:56:00.002+08:00

All i can say is that i still wait for you to call each night.
I'll be on Tumblr as of now on.
this Blog here will be filled with videos that simply relate to life.
feel free to write in the tagboard,this blog has too many memories for me to simply tear away.
Goodbye Blogger.

Ahmad Fiss

Ahmad-asyraf-abdullah.tumblr.com

Bieberdictive bieber

2010-05-12T21:36:00.002+08:00

Was watching bieber vids on youtube,even had a whole fight bout bieber with cuzzies.hey,he's a fine artist dont you think so?i think his songs can make a person truly see life's meaning,well at least for me.i mean well mist 16 year old boys would listen to Boys Like Girls etc. coz they think their songs relate well,for me,Bieber songs relate to me most.His hit Singles "One Time",One Less Lonely Girl and Baby have sold billions of copies and for a 16 year old,that is an awesome achievement.

alriteeee.

Ahmad Fiss

Ahmad-Asyraf-Abdullah.Tumblr.Com

Tumblr

2010-05-11T18:19:00.002+08:00

Guys!!!Announcing the Official Opening of!!!!!!

ahmad-asyraf-abdullah.tumblr.com!!!
haha,yeah!!!exciting,i would still update here so dont worry.anyway,hows everyone?fine?...i hope so.like i said earlier on on my tumblr,tomorrow is my chemistry paper and i am so excited,ive been revising hard so yeah!!haha..alritees..i'll see you when i see you,byeee

Might Be Shifitng

2010-05-10T23:04:00.001+08:00

Ladies & Gentleman,introducing my Tumblr: www.Ahmad-Asyraf-Abdullah.tumblr.com.
work in progress,once its done,i'll officially shift.

Demi & Selena no longer friends?

2010-05-10T18:00:00.003+08:00

I've got to be frank and public now.coz i was looking at the vid below bout Selena Gomez & Demi Lovato and it reminded me that the same thing has happened to the Selena and Demi of my life.its so saddening and honestly,Demi's reaction is just the same as yours Aishyah.i dont mean to interfere or anytin but think of it.BFFs Forever,wasn't that our aim?its been 3 years now.and everything's just collapsed into nothingness.it really hurts me to see it happening but i want to finally admit that im in no position to interfere despite us all being besties.Coz i really cant.sumting in me just indicates that that its gonna be permanent ,like Selena Gomez & Demi Lovato.its just a feeling.do you remember our filming last year?For one and the same?did you remember how much the three of us were so much into similar things?how the three of us were always by our sides,how we helped each other out?Academically and entertainment wise?but i guess just like Demi and Selena,you've chosen your paths and i cant possibly stop you.i cant chose one coz the both of you mean equally as much to me,and that the both of you are my shining stars.when one is missing,i just dont feel complete.i know that i myself have caused so much pain in the both of you,but please,re-consider everything?re-think wisely.Dont you miss our outings?Marina Barrage?do you remember?shopping?walking around for no apparent reason?but what hurts me the most is the fact that you could pass remarks about looks,i mean imagine if people labelled you,would you like it?i mean,im just stressed that you birthday gift just hurts me.

"Coz were one,and the same,were anything but ordinary."

Hillarious,ellen makes my day (:

2010-05-10T16:30:00.001+08:00

This vid is hillarious,hope it makes ure day!!

it was fer you

2010-05-09T21:50:00.002+08:00

everything i did,was for you and only you.
i abandoned friends just so i could ensure you were fine.
i set aside my time for you.
you said i was not like all the other guys,
i was unique and special.
i held on to those words of promise.
yet,when everything came crashing down,you just stomped on my world
and refused to help me restore my heart.
you said i needed to change,i did.
and you hate it that i changed into an average guy.
you hated me for being just like every other guy.
you hated that you made me a total jerk.
but you never admitted it.
you could never admit that i sacrificed so much for you.
all you would say is that i am history,never to be repeated again.
im so heartbroken at your harsh words,
at your stinking Attitude and rudeness.
ask around,i never said i dont care.
now,i just feel like an idiot,for waiting for you,
for trusting you ever.
i truly regret.

I BELEIVE I CAN PASS AND FOCUS ON MYE!!

2010-05-09T13:58:00.001+08:00

This is dedicated to all those who are stressed out with exams,this is motivation for you,my friend Ayuni!!

There comes a moment, when my heart must stand alone
On this lonely path Ive chosen,
like a house thats not a home
sometimes when I feel Ive had enough
and I feel like giving up
you willed me to be all I can be
now nothing can stop me
I believe in the power that comes
From a world brought together as one
I believe together well find
I believe in the power of you and I

This is the moment we have dreamed of all our lives
Well be the change we wish from others
Well stand tall for what its right
And in my hearts therell be no doubt
The arms of the world will come reaching out
And embrace me to be all I can be
Now nothing can stop me
I believe in the power that comes
From a world brought together as one
I believe together well fly
I believe in the power of you and I

I believe the time is right now
Stand tall and make the world proud
I believe together well fly
I believe in the power..
I believe in the power that comes
From a world brought together as one
(Of you and I)
I believe together well fly
I believe in the power of you and I
(power)
I believe the time is right now
(Oh you and I)
Stand tall and make the world proud
I believe together well fly (Together well fly)
I believe in the power of you and I
(I believe in the power of you and I)

Hello-Glee cast

2010-05-08T20:38:00.001+08:00

i dedicate this song to you,if you know who you are (:

I've been alone with you
Inside my mind
And in my dreams I've kissed your lips
A thousand times
I sometimes see you
Pass outside my door
Hello!
Is it me you're looking for?
I can see it in your eyes
I can see it in your smile
You're all I've ever wanted
And my arms are open wide
Because you know just what to say
And you know just what to do
And I want to tell you so much
I love you

I long to see the sunlight in your hair
And tell you time and time again
How much I care
Sometimes I feel my heart will overflow
Hello!
I've just got to let you know
Because I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely?
Or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven't got a clue
But let me start by saying I love you

Is it me you're looking for?
Because I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely?
Or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven't got a clue
But let me start by saying I love you

Yeah,ILY,
Ahmad Fiss

I believe-Nikki Yanofsky

2010-05-08T13:52:00.003+08:00

Love??

2010-05-07T21:23:00.002+08:00

Love is blind,its whats they say and maybe its simply true huh?for love,we will dare hurt others just to get that girl/guy.for love,we dare to keep our relationships in the dark,for love,we would do anything in our power,anything even if it sounds absurd.for love,we turn against our god sisters and god brothers and we hurt them even.when you care for someone for so long,it just simply develops into love,enough said about love,i think that its true what they say.hey,i know how much it hurts ok,i really do and i really cant tell you how much i love you coz im just so scared of rejections again.

Let The Vid tell the story

2010-05-06T18:59:00.002+08:00

Let the vid tell you the story,i miss my drama peepos!!hahahah..love ya all..
much love,
Ahmad Fiss

EENIE MEENIE

2010-05-05T20:12:00.000+08:00

MYE Prep+Friendship problems=Major Big time Stress

2010-05-05T19:44:00.003+08:00

It's lame,just lame shit but i really cant help bothering.i remembered the last time i had a crisis with the same people,i had someone special to lean on and to listen to my problems but now,she's gone.i feel so lost,and so stressed out.i get so annoyed at times but still her smile is the one that simply cheers me up.it wont change a situation.its still the same now.what i'm thinking of right now is that some people should just keep secrets to themselves and not tell it to others,especially if ure telling another boy from my class that you like this emo kia boy in another stream..ahah..thats hilarious.without realizing it,you might be in deep trouble.yeah,secrets can be dug out easily,so damn easily if you're a weakling.But then again,some people can trick you into telling?MYE Prep has been awesome i guess,covered most topics already but i know i wont pass and despite it being a nonsensical reason,its because of the equation above.its one equation that always appears in my life and it super sucks.I need you dear old companion whose always there,for now i guess only Ayunie understands.since both sides cant negotiate and come to terms,i think the best course of action will be for me to just try my best to save my own butt from failing MYE,then save other butts available for saving.its just so annoying and distracting but i have to focus,i have to!!!!

Childish games

2010-05-04T18:14:00.002+08:00

Stop being so childish can?stop giving sarcasm to me when i dont even deserve it,i want us all back as friends lah damn it,why must you make things so difficult for me.im like so badly affected but you dont give a damn coz you can focus,while i cant.She's not trying to take ure precious loved ones away.i was gonna stand up for you but how can i when i get labelled annoying.so forget it

its just so stupid

2010-05-03T21:08:00.002+08:00

thought you'll always be mine??i was wrong,ive lost you completely,yeah ive realized.its tough to lose you but since youve wiped me away as a history,i'll let it be that way.i wanted a second chance to be your godbrother and just be more happier than before.but ive lost you and my world crashes down,i cant rebuild coz i realized when you left,you took my heart with you and i have nothing left,i lost everything,is that not enough of a punishment.i deserve a second chance please,consider.you'll still be my adik no matter what,althogh i never will be your abang again.

life?

2010-04-29T23:18:00.002+08:00

whats weird about life?its like an unending pattern that repeats itself across the dark pit of time.Life can be so unfair sometimes.but honestly,its sometimes fair if you dont go down under.yeah,im just moving on,putting my focus where its supposed to be.i changed for you,my only leading lady.But maybe the guy i changed into just couldn't fit you.yeah im a major jerk,and im proud of that.because you wanted it this way.you wanted me to change just so you could go around boasting to people,but ever thought that i might have been unique if i never changed?that i would be categorized as gay and softie but still i went through all that bcoz i thought myself unique to your eyes.but i guess not.who was i to you?i am just an ordinary yet uncool guy.it wont change.you said if i was a guy and that if i truly was your God-brother in the first place,i would know how to get to you.honestly,i dont really know how if you dont even wanna talk.two hands can clap but one hand cant.it takes two to play a game.i just cant bother already.i feel so hurt but i cant bother,coz i know no matter how much i try,i cant get you back,yet be assured that you would not be replaced and that my heart is locked now.locked because i cant accept anybody else as a god sibling.yeah,thanks for the memories.thats all you can say.so im saying it,thanks for the memories.and im just gone now.

Keep your Eyes on the stars,but keep your feet on the ground~President Roosevelt

Your Broken Hearted Boy,
Ahmad Fiss

Memories

2010-04-28T20:16:00.002+08:00

KFC, Macdonalds,Century Square cineplex,Pizza Hut bedok,Vivocity,even my place.
i could still see you so frightened in my hall,crouching saying you hear sumtin while playing blind mice.
or how u cornered me in a big pillow and smashed me with it.
how we cooked fried noodles,made drinks?
how you watched TV with such a volume,i couldnt stand it?
how cowardly i was,not daring to make the fire bigger while cooking.
it all showed how much you meant to me,i want the world to see,what you mean to me.

im sorry

2010-04-26T21:00:00.002+08:00

just know that,im sorry,i never wanted make you feel so small.
ive hurt you so much and i know that well,i was wrong
i know i only have a part of you with me.
i only need a second chance.but you know me too well.
you know how blind i get in my pursuit of power.
but i never wanted to make you feel like A nothing.
ive never stopped praising you.
everytime someone asks me bout you,
i'll just give them a glare and walk off.
i miss you lots.
hearing your name hurts.
every night,i think of you
i'll change.please.

were like this,baby

2010-04-25T20:27:00.001+08:00

YOu cant deny it

2010-04-23T21:07:00.002+08:00

its so hard for me to see if my feelings fer you are true.
i really dnt know,i cnt bear the pain and the temptation of saying hello.
i cant forget you,i really cant..
its just hurting and killing me inside,i cant hang on any longer
i turn moody without the company of friends and i could swear my heart just jumps when i see you
yeah,it hurts for you to see me,it hurts for me too.
you can move on and pretend
but i cant..
its hard for me to breathe without you..
please??

Varsity Fanclub-Baby Cover

2010-04-21T17:08:00.000+08:00

memories,supposed to fade

2010-04-20T22:13:00.002+08:00

you told me thanks for the memories,
does that mean that ure leaving me forever?
all those times,our calls that last until midnight,
discussing 2010 camp proposals over the phone,
wishing me good luck for the retest,
allowing me to tell you my nonsensical problems,
calling me up just to update about your life.
all the jokes we cracked during Percy Jackson
Alvin & The Chipmunks?
Your birthday dinner at Pizza hut?
how could i forget those picture perfect moments?
Dragon;s Teeth Gate?
how i cried under stress and yet ure that one person who chills me down
how much i wanted to give up and yet you were there.
i admit it,all i provided you was materialistic happiness.
i could not understand your problems,but i listened and gave you my opinions.
Drama camp 2009,we had a chat bout Blue,Bout Him.
i could not be that perfect Brother for you,i admit.
im not like the other guys coz when i become a jerk,you'll remember it forever.
im supposed to forget all these??
i just cant.
coz whether u knew it or not,you were special to me.
how could i forget that sweet and tender smile??
the weird laughter you laughed out??
and everything unique bout you?
i'm too scared to admit that mayb for once,ive fallen in love with you.
coz im too scared of facing rejection again.
but is that it?forget about the whole thing?
the stars remind me of you,
i see you everywhere.
one more chance,let me be your Brother again.Please?would you consider it?

Life's just like that

2010-04-19T22:52:00.002+08:00

Life's been harsh and well bitter.Im Glad the whole Drama Controversy is actually beginning to clear up so i can actually focus on studies,but just when i thought this week would be for once wonderful,it rains today,like damn heavily and then my dearest 4gians are like starting to drift apart..dear oh dear,i dont want to see it happen but well,poof!!!seen it happen,like AGAIN!!..oooh and i am so uber addicted to Starstruck!!!!!yeah,after finishing revision,watch it all over again on youtube..well yeah..i think that will help entertain me for now..dear god,been failing almost every class test damn it!!!okay,then theres this part about people quarreling bout stuff lah..haiyooooo..its been happening so much that every one of their fights is like so setakat/has no real intention..haiyoooo..then i ask a lil bit,get labeled annoying,i postpone my math mock test,kena comment..haiyoooo..end it lah,favour lah!!!we all sec fours yet we squabble bout lil stuff..(including me too)..haiyoo..middle person agian..haiyah..crap lah..dowan to give a damn ready.i told oyu,be patient and understanding but you all not patient..im angry at both sides lah actually..haizzzz..what to do ritee??its life..

D,i Love you,i Miss you..

Starstruck-Sterling Knight

2010-04-18T10:02:00.000+08:00

let me be your hero

2010-04-17T21:09:00.000+08:00

lets go

2010-04-17T18:28:00.003+08:00

I cant do anyting,ive done everything in my power to end the war.but i cant coz ive done everytin..so yeah..affects me emotionally but what the heck?all this coz of sumtin so political??yeah my personal comments when shared with others become political,but hei,ive realized it.i have to really move on coz ive always seen the way out,but i never thought it to be there.so once again,im just sitting,waiting and just moving on,so yeah.time will do its trick for me and i'll just get back to revising and stuff??ritee??i dont want to talk about what happened in the past.the decision is being made whether i like it or not.i wouldnt say that triumph is within my grasp,rather its more like retribution and punishment to me.but no worries,i'll go through it.

D,i miss you so much
i hurt you and its just immature.
im sorry
but baby,i love you
and i'll love you like i always do

Me,myself & Time-Demi Lovato

2010-04-16T20:42:00.001+08:00

im sorry,please forgive me

2010-04-16T18:22:00.003+08:00

i bitched bout you
but i was asked my personal opinion.
i said the truth,what i really thought
i never meant to hurt you in anyway.
if i meant all those insults,why did i stand up for you when you were called bimbos by my affiliates??
yeah,hell yeah,Syaf was not wrong for revealing
but you really want this?
if i get to become president and it comes with the price of losing you,
than forget it,i dont want presidency
please,forgive me.let bygones be bygones.
i meant all those happy memories
and i regret all the sad memories.
please mai,forgive me.i cant bear to hurt you
you left and made me regret.
i was a major moron but i wasnt targeting you or feeq
please mai,..im sorry
if it takes me to walk across the oceans just to grab you and say im sorry,
i will do it.you left a hole in my heart when you left
but youve put up with my nonsense.
please??one more shot??

Stop it

2010-04-15T21:04:00.003+08:00

i dont know whats going on,
i did not tear up the club.
i dont want to coz it feels like tearing my soul
but yet ure blaming me,
denying the fact that you betrayed me
yeah,in front of me,act like im the biggest thing on earth,Kuang Ho & everytin
but then,you decide to hurt me.
you say its a misunderstanding
but i think its ure own misunderstanding not mine.
ive lost everything,r u happy now?
i lost that special girl in my life,we dont talk anymore
i lost my best friends in drama,
i lost the trust of my juniors,so how can you say that im turning them against you?
i made it straight to you,that i would take on Presidency only if you grant me that chance
i even said sorry despite the whole thing not being my fault,
what do you want,you want me to suffer??
ive suffered
you want me to focus on my studies?? done that
you want me to not care?i didnt
but this just crosses the line.
you made them say that im tearing the club apart
who is really doing??
if i wanted to rebel against you,i would have done it earlier.
it doesn't mean a thing to me,surely you dont care
I'm injured,Crippled,hurt,Sad,shocked,dissapointed.
you've got what you wanted,so leave me alone.

For me??please??

2010-04-14T21:06:00.001+08:00

Ohhh
Yee

Bukalah
pintu hati mu
Biarkan cinta bersatu

Mata mu
Mata ku
Bertemu

Hati mu
Hati ku
Kan berpadu

Hanya kau
Ku punya
Tak kan ku
Mencari gantimu
Oh.. ku sayang mu

Mungkin kah
Silap aku
Hati mu luka
Kerna ego ku Oh..

Chorus:
Bukalah
Pintu hati mu
Ku tunggu kasih mu
Biar cinta bersatu .

Hati ku
Mencari mu
Kau lari berbatu- batu usahlah
Tinggalkan diri kuoh.

Kaulah cinta ku
Ku tak kan lepaskan mu

Slow

Pernah ku bertanya
Mungkin kau kan sudi
Memberi secebis hati mu lagi
Pada ku
Namun kau menyepi
Ku resah menanti

Chorus: (3 x)
Bukalah
Pintu hati mu
Ku tunggu kasih mu
Biar cinta bersatu

Hati ku
Mencari mu
Kau lari berbatu- batu usahlah
Tinggalkan diri ku

Oh

Justin Bieber-Overboard & Stuck In The Moment

2010-04-11T13:42:00.002+08:00

I need you to know

2010-04-10T18:13:00.002+08:00

Theres this girl in my life,
who has an awesome laughter,
is the envy of most people,
and who is just so patient with me.
I met this girl in Sec 2,
and we were Stage Managers.
At First,i fought with this girl because well she was just bitchy
but i never thought she would be special to me one day.
it was Friend to Best Friend to God siblings.
3 years of everlasting understanding passed
and each moment i spent with her,was precious
we went to the movies,we hanged out.
we went all over Singapore at twilight in a van.
We Shared Laughter and Secrets.
We shared our lives with each other.
We are still inseparable even after so many people try to put us down
and this girl,is one i really adore.
who never fails to leave me laughing my heads off,
who is very stubborn like me
who accepts me for who i am.
i splurge on this girl,that i admit
but she never asked for it.
She helped me get through life.
and well she's this special little lady
who i want to spend every hour with,
whom i truly love as a Sister.
i need you to know,that i'll always be by your side.
and that i will always catch you when you fall.
Maisarah Bte Mustafa,You are amazing and i miss you.

Ahmad Fiss

Sec 4 Express,4 NA Farewell drama party

2010-04-09T22:55:00.002+08:00

its a very sad occasion today..our last moments in drama..alot of tears were shed,alot of memories were remembered.for the Sec 4 Express,their journey ends here but for us sec 4 Na,i think we would work hard and pass our N levels so that we can meet up with our juniors again.i'll miss everyone,Jing wen,Sam,Pei Ling,Syafinaz,Nabilah,Aeriqah and all the others who never fail to make me laugh.they are my remedy and i just wanna express my deepest thank yous.its been a roller coaster ride but honestly,as much as it was tiring,i enjoyed every moment of it,singing jai ho in the bus to ACJC,getting sleep on the bus,memorizing the script on board the bus,our tough yet amazingly fun trainings,and well all those tears and laughter we shared together.it was a great experience not to be forgotten.and it will definitely be held here,deeply in my heart.if you have any thing to share with me,to ask me or if you need a shoulder to cry on,i'll be there supporting you all the way coz you guys are my precious people who i will never ever forget,cheer up and well,enjoy every moment that you have,

Cheers,
Your Drama King,
Ahmad fiss/Kuang HO

Its over

2010-04-08T23:00:00.003+08:00

070410 Was a bomb
we need time to decide our priorities
so i guess,it was right of us to just go our own ways
yeah,it hurts,but what else can i say?
you love him,so go.
but if he fails,I'll be by your side,i promise
Bella,only some know your real identity
and i guess,we should leave it that way
I'm a wreck,but i guess i'll make it through??

Even if i fall in love again with someone else,it could never be the way i loved you..

070410

2010-04-07T23:19:00.002+08:00

Love you Bella,
i promise to be yours forever
i promise to try my best to give us a shot
if we dont make it.then its fated to be
but we'll last long,
we'll keep it low
and as long as im by your side,i'll sweep you off your feet
i'm yours now
Love you so much!!

{070410}

Your Love.
Ahmad Fiss

Dragon's Teeth Gate

2010-04-04T21:48:00.002+08:00

its ended,4 months hard work paid off
Stella Kon,called it awesome
my dreams all came true
to have a single spotlight on me,i got it
to be loved by my juniors,i got it
im gonna miss everyone..
and i just cant bear to leave the club
51 People,from all walks of life came together to create the performance
and then,51 people made the world of arts,a better place

Kudos to all Drama Stage Artistants!!!
we all rock!!!!

your Drama Prince,
Ahmad Fiss /Kuang Ho

I'll never let you go

2010-03-31T20:41:00.001+08:00

Adik,if youre reading,its for you..

Ahmad Fiss

i've only got one shot!!!

2010-03-30T21:13:00.002+08:00

You only get one shot so make it count
You might never get this moment again
The clock is ticking down, it's the final round
So tell me what it is that's stopping you now
You never know unless you try
You'll only regret sitting wondering why
You only get one shot so watch this moment go by

im trying hard,i need a fresh breath of air before my performance..and well,Bella is my air..along with all those people who are encouraging me
well thats that

Your Boy
Ahmad Fiss

Pressure's building

2010-03-29T21:08:00.002+08:00

Only god knows how worried i am for the performance.i cant seem to memorize the script and even if i can memorize,i keep screwing up on stage..and its like so frustrating and well,its annoying when you have a person come up to you and say that its easy to memorize my whole chunk of lines.well,todays training,i broke down coz i couldnt memorize it and my focus was off..so off that well i forgot my entrances and exits and got called a smart Alec..like wth man??now i dont know but i just dont feel like being happy coz im just a failure like shit..

Ahmad Fiss

i know

2010-03-28T14:52:00.002+08:00

Instincts took over once & for all
I'm not blaming anyone
but i know who were there by my side
and i am not disappointed that none of them is you
Its because i knew from the start what great actors all of you are
and i feel guilty that my care and concern were for the wrong people
they say its hard to not care about the people who you care about,
i made a promise that i wont hurt anyone again
you can make up all the valid reasons for all i care
but between you and God,you know if youre lying or not
here i am trying my best to be so damn truthful
but there you are making up lies in the whole wide world
im sick,tired of just keeping so calm about this whole thing
so im just gonna go through life
my failures and passes are mine,and mine only
You've got yourselves to blame,you made me like this

Your bOy
Ahmad Fiss

Sweet 16 party

2010-03-27T21:58:00.002+08:00

8 Dunmanites,& 16 cuzins..yeah..its awesome..maya & izza came first with hillarry but Hillarry left early..b4 cuzins came,me & Izza did the Drama Mass dance from Our previous two camps..so awesome..as guests started filling in,the music kept blasting..then after that we all watched new moon and munched on Ice cream where at the exact moment,Noorlin arrived..thnaks eh lin,i was glad you came..then wendy and evelyn came..so awesome!!!!we played musical chairs..Team Dunman VS. Team Cousins..and team Dunman won!!!coz the final 2 standing were dunmanites,wendy & tian poh..thanks yaw!!then we played this memory game which was uber fun!!!then was the Present opening ceremony..lotsa great gift sey..i love ya all for coming..i was upset b4 that but you guys who came definetely boosted my mood and made me Ahmad..thanks eh you all..ahha..im sorry if the party was too low key but i think it was the best coz the food was fit for the gods..agree not??ahahah..

thanks again,.,
YOur One and only Boy
Ahmad Fiss

Party Prep,Done,Guests,50% not attending

2010-03-26T23:26:00.002+08:00

all the prep was fer nothing..
im actually scared that people wont come tmrw
if my closest buddies cant make it,what else the others i invited..
i hope its not gonna be a disaster
but even if less than 10 show up,the party must go on riteee??
hmm..food prepared for like 30 guests but so far like only a handful have given answers
im so damn worried...its gonna be a disaster if less than 10 show up man..
please god,let them come...
mum's gonna be pissed off if less than 10 come..
haiz..i shud have invited more...whats done is done

One Shot-JLS

2010-03-26T20:50:00.000+08:00

tough call

2010-03-25T21:57:00.003+08:00

its, going to be the show soon and it means my stepping down from drama is also happening.its just so sad,i havent done all the things i need to do,i havent teach my juniors how to be an actor,i havent had my wish of single handedly organizing drama camp i havent had the chance to know every single one of my juniors.and its a damn sad thing to have drama taken away from me like that..its gonna be such an emotional moment for me to really like let go of that beloved CCA..haiz,how fast can it be??which is why i must work hard for N levels so that i can come back to my darling CCA..i love it so much it hurts like mad to let go..i love All my drama peeps!!!!excluding the Bitch Clan..ahahah..but well..yeah..all thats left to say is

ILY DRAMA!!!!!!!!!!

Your Drama Prince,
Ahmad Fiss

When youre 16!!!

2010-03-23T22:47:00.002+08:00

yoha!!!!!im 16..it feels so amazing..i wanna thanks lots of people and my sweet drama juniors who made me a card and who said i was the best senior ever..thanks yeah??hopefully you guys learn a thing or two from me....to everyone else..thank u so much for that,im hosting a party this saturday..and i guess its on invitation basis only..ahahha..ok..thats evil..i only have 40 people on my guestlist and well a very low budget so the invite is actually just a piece of paper that says youre invited and directions to my place..woohoooo!!!!!cant wait..im screening a movie too you know..so awesome!!!mirrah's helpin me plan..so yeah..thats that..my hands are sore from replying every1's wishes on FB..gosh it hurts like mad..okies..byeeee

Canon,delighting you always!!!!!

2010-03-22T20:43:00.002+08:00

yeah,pictures on FB coz apparently blogger uploads slowly..anywaes..sweet 16 cancelled,i dont wanna celebrate and there was an ulterior motive of dad buying me that freaking awesome camera.some things dont change.
im sick of hypocrites and empty promises & i love my adikk too much damn it..i would never hurt her or boast about her coz she can do that all by herself,she's stronger than anyone of u so please watch ure damn mouth..dont judge its book by its cover,she's not like her other friends okay and mind u they are fun and loving and they are not hypocrites..no matter what,i love her for whoever she is,so back off!!!!!!

It's all about the little things (:

2010-03-20T17:28:00.001+08:00

my new wallpapers!!!!!!!!

2010-03-20T17:03:00.002+08:00

This was all i managed to do..hei guess what??3 days to my birthday and this is the only prep im doing for my birthday..aint that fun..so this whole week has been a very busy "holiday"..yeah,im so tired from all the training and next week,everyday got training until friday except thursday..phew!!!ahaha..yeah im trying to hold down my lines and all so urgh!!!its too tough..the only day i will get to relax is tuesday but even then i think it would be my most disastrous sweet 16..ahiz..kays lah..byeee

your bOy
Ahmad Fiss

my dream,hopefully it comes true

2010-03-18T20:11:00.002+08:00

if dad fulfils his promise,i'll get the camera by next week..the camera is $199 and ive saved $100,he promised to pitch in $99 but well,i have doubts..tday again had drama,i didnt screw up that much so yay!!!!tmrw wearing the tuxedo..so i duno how..yeah,i chose not to attend my bdae outing coz well,julius promised to cut off my chunky lines..hopefully that comes true..im already so sick of empty promises..very very sick of just listening to those worthless promises..u know what?if you cant fulfil a promise than dont make a promise..

Your bOy
Ahmad Fiss

ACJC rehearsal

2010-03-17T21:41:00.002+08:00

so lazy to type long2..so lets do it bullet form..

Title says it all
well,reached school early,camwhored in dance studio + disco
go to acjc..bus ride was annoying coz bidisha was being a b***h
at acjc,did stuff and lightings until like 7
then bussed to dunman
ate dinner at mr prata
home sweet home
feels that drama should teach juniors to respect their seniors,b4 seniors respect them (:

It's a Curse!!

2010-03-16T22:01:00.002+08:00

my sweet 16 is officially a curse..u know what??well see,im having my bdae outing wif my 4G peeps on friday but then apparently i have drama..ive already told the Teacher In Charge and weve already done a deal stating i will be allowed to go for the outing..then apparently som epeople jsut make it a bog deal that i don tinvite drama people..big deal ritteeeee????im pissed offffffff!!!!!!!!!GRRRRRRR

SURPRISE!!!!!

2010-03-15T23:40:00.000+08:00

a dramatic day

2010-03-15T22:34:00.002+08:00

yes..well..drama training was plain awesome just now..i managed to go off script!!!!!but well,had a lot of prompting which was well hillarious coz me and Glenn were the first to release our scripts..the full set has already arrived and ive memorized 50% of my lines..so yayness!!!!then after that comes the 2nd part of drama..i got home and noticed that my Levi's watch and my cashbox which mind you has cash,old love letters and personal stuff inside..was taken..dad say he "ACCIDENTALLY" threw it away..so hillarious!!!!!!(SARCASM IN ACT!!!)..like WTH???im saving up money for that new bloody camera and then you just throw it away..i know he wants to open the box but the thing is..it has both combination and key so you need both to unlock it..and he doesnt have the key,coz i carry it around..so i bet its somewhere inside the master bedroom which is like a super thick vault(coz its always locked)..im am so damn pissed that well..ive gone crazy!!!!!

you bOy
Ahmad Fiss

my 1 & only

2010-03-15T10:10:00.002+08:00

Have you seen her around?
To the person who never fails to make me laugh
to the person who always would understand me
to my one & only adik in dunman,
dont fret over these petty stuff
i know youre strong and you have the capabilities to overcome this problem
if you need to release your anger,dial me up..
dont be sad or worried
because time would do its trick for you..
time would make you tougher,im sure of it

Your bOy
Ahmad Fiss

mirrah' bdae party

2010-03-14T20:45:00.002+08:00

yaw!!!lets just say i think i attended the best sweet 16 party ever..ahahah..it was great with games and all..woohooo.....ok..most of you would be staring at the baby below..awesome riteee???i assume if i save up for another week,i can buy it ready so its like a bdae gift for myself..lastly.tmrw go drama and yes,im gonna be brave and try to go off script..if i forget then well..i hope got prompter..i wanna give it a shot..i msut give it a shot if not i'll be too dependent on the script..alrite..gotta start trying

Your bOy
Ahmad Fiss

This Baby is gonna be mine soon!!!!

2010-03-13T22:20:00.000+08:00

Im broken and incomplete

2010-03-13T19:47:00.002+08:00

i lost you
i lost you to them because i couldnt make you happy
i lost you to them because they mean more than me
i lost you to them because i refused to understand your feelings
i let you learn your lesson the hard way and it aches my heart
i need you back coz ure my heart
losing you is losing myself too
i want to care for you
i miss you
i really do,i miss you till it aches

Make A Wave

2010-03-13T19:21:00.002+08:00

amazing day today,heres the official vid of Make A Wave..enjoy and reflect what we've been doing to this earth that we have been born on.love and protect our sea animals be it endangered or not and do not support pollution that has destroyed our lovely planet..in this new part of Disney's project green,Disney is encouraging everybody to shorten their shower by 2 minutes.if you take a 15 minutes shower,than shorten it to 13 minutes.if everyone does it,we would have prevented the wastage of water that could be used to give aid to people who do not have water supply.Disney is also taking the Project Green up a new level by conserving Endangered Marine animals.

Remember,1 Friend is Powerful But A Million other Friends is Unstoppable,
We Can Make A Change,Take Action NOW!!!

your bOy
Ahmad Fiss

Make A Wave

2010-03-12T21:17:00.002+08:00

they say the beat of a butterfly's wings can set off a storm a world away,
what if they're right and the smallest of things could power the strongest hurricane
what if it all begins inside?
We hold the key to turn the tide

CHORUS
just a pebble in the water ooh
can set the sea in motion ooh
a simple act of kindness ohh
can stir the widest ocean
if we show a little love
heaven know what we could change
oh yeah
so throw a pebble in the water and make a wave
make a wave

VERSE 2
the single joys that you take and send
you touch your hand with someone in need
(hold somebody)
don't pull yourself and say you can't
you never know what can grow
for just one scene
yeahhh
so come with me and seize the day
this world may never be the same

CHORUS
just a pebble in the water ooh
can set the sea in motion ooh
a simple act of kindness ohh
can stir the widest ocean
if we show a little love
heaven know what we could change
oh yeah
so throw a pebble in the water and make a wave
make a wave

make a wave
yea yea yea yea yeahhh
(show me all the love for the seasoning)
make me a wave
(make a wave yeahh)
(show me all the love for the seasoning)
make me a wave

(make a wave yeahh)
make a wave
heaven know what we could change
just show little love we never know something could change
throw a pebble in the water
make a wave
(make a wave)

go disney!!!!,1 friend is powerful,1 million friends can be unstoppable

2010-03-11T20:44:00.002+08:00

Send it on coz 1 friend is powerful & 1 million is unstopabble

2010-03-11T20:29:00.001+08:00

fail!!!!

2010-03-11T19:50:00.002+08:00

haiyo!!!i failed maths horribly despite the fact that i studied uber hard for it..haiz..im so sad..but i want to jia you for mid year..i want to improve!!!!haiz..next week the whole week got drama,yes ah!!!need my destress moment..but still hor..haiz.....i thought want to go for screenbox's course on script writing & stage manging but clash with drama so yeah,cannot..then on friday,going out with peeps despite having drama coz they booked it like last week.,and i need to live my social life what rite..and then hor..Birthday is coming!!!!!!!!cnat wiat..yay3..oooh..i miss my adik mai so much,long time never talk to her in person hor??

A very F*** up class

2010-03-10T21:35:00.002+08:00

thats the description for 1F 2007..1 very F***ED up class..ahahah..we were all so naive back then hor??stayed back just now and me,syah & su travelled back to 2007..recalled the past good and bad times..ahhaha..then met mira and we continued the stories!!ohkaes..ahahah..i cant wait to wear the tux!!!i simply cant wait..cant wait,cant wait!!!two papers left,F&N & POA..haiya..lazy to update more..so byeeeee

Your bOy
Ahmad Fiss

finished revision

2010-03-08T21:52:00.002+08:00

ive done it!!!!!!ive studied chem like shit..ive focused on chem and physics that im too tired for SS/Geog..ahhaha..15 days to sweet 16 and guess what im giving myslef??great and awesome grades for English,MT,Chem,Physics & Math..yups2..must jiayou!!!!never say die lah hor..today in class,mr ng showed us the Drama trailer..so far,4G has 12 people going..yay!!!i expected none to turn up but i want to thank those who are going and those who wanted to go but cant go..thanks yaw!!!!ok,now i woul dlike to have some apples and tea and i shall go to sleep..toodles and jiaoyu for your common tests!!

your bOy
Ahmad Fiss

To Kill A Mockingbird

2010-03-07T09:59:00.002+08:00

it was fun yesterday but felt preety much unwelcomed since apparently im no lit student..so reached late so i boarded the sec 5 bus where it was uber3 akward but just sat lor..reached NLB's Drama Centre,waited for the other buses and we went in to watch..was fun..the story and plot was jsut straightforward and awesone and well the ending performance was cool..after which thought i would eat at tampines with diana,ras,SND & shehan but at kembangan,mum called and asked me to go aunt's place to rewang..so dropped off at bedok and called mirrah,talk3 then suddenly mum say dnt go first..i was like..woah..so cabbed to tampines where while i was walking past KFC saw diana,shehan & ras..so joined them for a meal lah..it was scruptious chicken..then temaned diana & shehan go jalan2 shopping..every clothes shehan tried on was simply too long..and it was uber funny..then finally at 8,we went our seperate ways then i cabbed to bedok north for that rewang thing then suddenly i decided not to do anything so then talked with my nieces who are in primary school,ate lots of Tulang and crapped..boring night..went home just slept..ah!!!!sweet 16 coming right up yaw!!!!!

your bOy
Ahmad Fiss

Dont forget

2010-03-05T21:29:00.002+08:00

Somehow,this song relates to what im feeling..have a listen and reflect.
Your bOy
Ahmad Fiss

18 days to sweet 16!! // Tuxedo Fitting

2010-03-05T19:52:00.003+08:00

HALO!!!!yeah..18 more days..its so exciting yaw..anywaes..today school as per normal but evelyn and mai were absent and so it was like damn boring..completed 2 math assignments in just like 15 minutes coz i admit,it was easy and ahmad never says maths was easy but yeah it was!!!then recess blah3 then English was awesome..learned techniques for Common Test..then had lunch at the canteen,met mirrah and ras and we talked and LOLed..then miss tang came by and we LOled more..than it was time for ras and mirrah to leave so i shifted to Izza and Noorlin's table where we LOLed until lin was practically on the verge of tears..hahaha..funny,then took a ride on miss tang's sports car with mrs Sundar or Sunda,duno how to spell..and let me tell you,fot the 2nd time there was this group of sec 3 boys in awe when they saw me in the fronst seat of Miss tang's automobile..it was funny and io kinda boasted..ok LOL..then we dropped mrs sundar at the mrt station b4 driving fer orchard plaza for the tux fitting..really had some hot issues and topics going on in the car since apparently it was left wiht miss tang & me,one of which was a possible idea of a combined cmap between drama and...........hahha..secret..then reached destination,tried the tux..it was amzing..for a second,i didnt look fat..i was shocked myslef..we looked at some italian shoes and went off back to dunman..thatss my dayyy

19 days to sweet 16

2010-03-04T21:46:00.002+08:00

19 days to sweet 16..cant wait!!!!celebrating myself obviously..so im on the hunt for a blue birthday cake that i will cut and eat myself..it would be awesome..i dnt want a fuss out of my sweet 16..just some private time alone with dearest close ones..hmm..where to buy a blue birthday cake??i wonder..well..19 days left and i swear to god mirrah's bdae is coming up so soon..wat gift shud i get her??i dunooooo...hmmm..any ideas anyone??..oh yeah..tmrw is going to be the tux fitting..wooohohho!!!cant wait to try it on yaw..aites then..thats it fer now..buhbye!!!!

Demi-god quest

2010-03-03T20:16:00.002+08:00

After finding so hard,heres five who already have titles

Ahmad Fiss,Son Of Zeus
Aishyah Lautner Purdy,Daughter Of Hades
Su,Daughter of Hades
Hazmira Archuleta Lerman,Daughter of Poseidon
Atiqah Iskandar,Daughter of Athena

ahahah..ok lOlz..20 days to sweet 16!!!!!!i cant wait..im gonna be able to watch NC16 Movies and im gonna be 16!!!its just awesome..wooohoooo!!!!!!!!

You Better Fulfil It :p

2010-03-02T18:42:00.002+08:00

21 More days to my birthday,

Will you fulfill the promise you once made?
Will you remember me?
You will
but only for one day,after that,back to square one
i aint gonna cry for you
coz im trying to live without you
its not easy but im trying
maybe you'll realize it only when im in my grave
you once said,i cant balance my friends
im already doing it now
but its just that you'll use me for whatever purpose
and then you'll throw me away..
its ok,im used to the treatment

wish list

2010-03-01T22:46:00.002+08:00

22 more days to my birthday..
my wishes??

for somebody to realize she's forgotten/abandoned me
Quality time with my Best Friends
More drama trainings
less class tests
world peace
pass my maths test at least once
pass my chemistry test again
improve on physics
Blue Birthday cake
Blue birthday cards
More Blue items
people to except me for who i am

FYI,finished the entire collection of percy jackson's novels..i got all 5 books

Demi-gods

2010-02-28T20:47:00.002+08:00

Friends,take the quiz @ : Percyjacksonthemovie.com/quiz to find out who youre descended to..Me & Su found out ready..so here it is..

SU,Daughter Of Hades

Ahmad,Son Of Zeus

Move over Everybody

2010-02-27T22:51:00.004+08:00

ahhaha..move over everybody,someone else is ruling the Throne of coolness in the world..its none other than the person who is equally obsessed with the colour blue,who is just a great actor..i give you Logan Lerman!!!!..yup2..watched Percy Jackson's again & we all know that if ahmad watches it more than once,means the movie really rocks!!!so it does,it beat every movie ive watched and ive never given so high ratings..so Percy Jackson's got 10/10 beating every single movie ive watched in my life..its a really awesome movie that promises to grip & enchant you..greek mythology has never been filmed on such an exciting level..go watch it..i want to go fer the 3rd time..anyone wants to go??woohoooo!!b4 the movie,i was at care & share day bazaar in school..our Corney Dogs were simply awesome,the beef sauce was so ooohlalala..i bought 4 Corney dogs the whole day..uber scrumptious!!ohk..after my shift ended,i decided to chill in the council room,then went to watch the Teacher's concert..ohklah..but i wished more teachers would have performed coz the student's performance was just so boring except for Khairul's dance crew..they rock man!!the way they danced,i swear they were bringing down the roof..then Baqir & Amri's wonderful instrument playing although the other bandmates spoiled it,it was awesome yaw!!aftet the concert,i went to 3d's haunted house with maisarah mydin..ok,this one is very funny..i expected to be scared out of my skin but then when a figure suddenly wanted to scare me,i was like"Oh,hi Sholihin"!!!ahhah..then despite knowing where the exit was,we turned one round to find Mai adik..saw her in white and i was like MAI!!!!she turned and cackled like this freaky ghost but well im used to it so i was like"Hahah,not scary..bye2"..ahhaha..it was fun lah..a job well done to 3D and it's twinning class..oh..did i mention that 2A,our twinning class,sold everyting!!!???awesome riteeeee?????okie dokies..go watch Percy jackson's and next year,come to our Care & Share day Bazaar!!!GREAT JOB,DUNMANITES!!

Maybe Its true

2010-02-26T20:12:00.003+08:00

your heart would pound so hard when you finally meet her
and when she's around you forget bout everything
She would mean the world to you
but you would never mean the world to her
its how it is
now i need to know everything
but i wont tell you what i feel
coz i dont want you to just shut down and leave me alone
youre my strength
but one day you'll know i love you like any other brother would
not more or less,just an overprotective brother
you hate it,i know
but i;m learning to let go
its hard,but i'll try

History is repeated again

2010-02-25T22:30:00.002+08:00

I'm Sick of conflicts and secrets.
I'm Sick of empty promises
I'm sick of always getting pissed off
History has repeated its course of action once again
and im just so sick of seeing things happenning again
some people are just plain hypocrites,
in the absence of friends,they are so unfocused and playful
yet in the presence of their Clique,they act so Focused
hypocrites..
im trying to be myself here,enjoying every study moment
and all i told myself for 2 months was that:I AM OKAY,I WILL STUDY HARD AND PLAY HARD
no names mentioned,you know who you are,im not pointing fingers
whoever bites the chilli tastes it's spicyness

Hiatus

2010-02-24T21:41:00.002+08:00

Wont be updating much
coz im too busy doing stuff Re-furnishing my room and everything
so yeah..take care aites??

Lover boy,
Ahmad Fiss

I know that you know

2010-02-22T21:33:00.002+08:00

Bella,
youre the person people have been asking about
so who are you Bella??
you dont even know ure bella.
constant finger pointing would get you no where
but you know i'll keep denying who you are
only 2 people know.me & 1 other
that one other person guessed and i revealed it
for now,Bella love,i want only the world to know i love you
i might be in the foreshadows coz you have your Edward
but recall who was there through ure ups and downs
and you would really realize that History is able to repeat itself
Bella isnt Blue in anyway.
She's special and one of a kind.
maybe nobody would ever know who this girl is..
i want it kept that way..

Percy Jackson & The Olympians Mania!!!

2010-02-21T17:57:00.003+08:00

yup..went to watch it yesterday with mai and syasya adik..it was awesome although we got bad seats..it was awesome..there was a scen in which the half goat called percy while i was drinking from a cup and it was so unexpected that i dropped my cup,then in the scene where Hades says:""Ah,Nephew."and i said "ah,uncle"..ahahha..i swear the three of us were super kecoh..oh and today went bookhunting coz i found out there are 5 other books in the series which are as follows:

Percy Jackson & The Olympians:The Lightning Thief
Percy Jackson & The Olympians:The Sea Of Monsters
Percy Jackson & The Olympians:The Titan's Curse
Percy Jackson & The Olympians:The Battle Of The Labyrinth
Percy Jackson & The Olympians:The Last Olympian
Percy Jackson & The Olympians:The Demigod Files

the ones in blue,i already own,the ones in black,you know what birtday gift to buy me..Rick Riordan is an awesome writer and you can finish each book in 2 hours if you take a constant read..trust me..the movie is as great as the book so get it off the shelves of any libraries that cater to Rick Riordan aites??thats it fer now..so byeeee

BABY

2010-02-20T20:15:00.000+08:00

Baby

2010-02-20T19:56:00.002+08:00

Since you went away,
your memory lingers,
you left me that day & slipped through my fingers
Oh girl,
When we met, you had to go
And I got your messages on my phone
And I know that it's outta your control
But I keep on craving you
I'll do whatever it takes
To get ya closer to me
Cuz I'm right beside you
I'll be that guy who
Is falling in love with you so much
Cuz there's something about you
That makes me so crazy, it's true
And I don't know what to do

bella,ILY

2010-02-18T23:28:00.004+08:00

Dear Bella,
how long was it since we laughed together?
how much have you missed me?
how much do you treasure me?
all you care about are your bloodsuckers
youve forgotten what ive provided fer you
a magic carpet when your floor breaks,
a shoulder to cry on,to share your burden
a person who will listen not judge you

I ♥ U Bella,I will always ♥ U as someone who is your Elder,who is your friend and family.

Ahmad Fiss ♥ Bella

We are The World 25 For Haiti

2010-02-17T17:49:00.001+08:00

high fever

2010-02-17T16:56:00.002+08:00

yo!!yup3 having high fever like damn high..current temperature,38.7c..aha..been sleeping all day coz i think thats what you do when ure sick and u eat medicine that makes you drowsy..weirdest thing is that you tend to eat less when ure sick..i havent had any food tday except for cookies and milk..and i dont even feel hungry..plus for being sick,i just lost 1kg today..i shud be sick more..MC for 2 days but im feelin gbetter tday..frget it..im gonna rest fer 2 days just like the doctor says..anywaes,yesterday wen tto watch valentines day with aishyah,fiqah,raqif,hadi,hariz and aliff at cineleisure orchard..then we walked around orchard central blah3..then trained home..randomly,we started to talk about my flat foot..and raqif was saying that crocs has those weird cuttings suited fer people like me then syah added that crocs is lame..so then this malay uncle near us took offence to what we said coz he was wearing crocs..then he was like:"It's not good to gossip bout people."and honestly it was a dumbfounding moment when he started to show his wallet and his shoes..show shoes,ok lah got link..wallet??got wat link to the situation??well we almost talked back but well,we were all thought not to answer back to an elder so we just kept our mouth shut..weird isnt it our malay community??some of us are so narrow minded that we result to violence at the thought of provocation..

I'm back!!!!!

2010-02-16T08:53:00.002+08:00

Heloooo people..so many updates..just woke up from sleep,i got home at 3am??missed me??awww..ahha..ok so heres an update of the thing i went..it's organized by Exora Travels which is awesome!!and we left singapore friday night at 10++ then bussed to clementi to pick up other participants then we went second link..after that we bussed to KL,rested,prayed subuh before finally making our way to Jeram Besu,Pahang..throughout the whole journey,i revised my script!!then reached jerambesu ready,ate breakfast and go water rafting..fun!!!after getting wet,we ate lunch.we went on a 4WD expedition up this hill or something which has a waterfall ..so we went there..super nice surroundings..it really look like the set from new moon..then i played in the waterfall b4 we went down the mountian..then ate dinner and lights off...2nd day,woke up,breakfasted went to taman negara,do rapid shooting then walked the canopy walk..fun but really scary coz its like 10 stories high and the planks were just ladders which are boarded up..then had lunch,b4 going back jeram besu,lights off..third day..went to see orang asli,& elephants..then go to KL,shopping then back to singapore..thats it..i miss every1!!!!!

all set for white water rafting trip

2010-02-12T08:14:00.003+08:00

yups,bags all packed for pahang..really cant wait fer the white water rafting at taman negara..woohoo..hahaha..its weird but i miss you girl..coz talking to you once in a while makes me feel special..i miss our quality time together yet everytyme i try to spend time wif you,its either ure busy or i am..when is the next time i would be able to sit and chat wif you again..i miss you like loads..we dont see each other that much anymore..i feel so empty wihtout u here by my side.could you be my favourite girl again Bella??my favourite gurl who never fail to make me smile and laugh??its lke the only reason im here with you is to protect you from the world..protect you from those bloodsuckers..come back bella,come back with me and let me hold you tight..

Be back on Wednesday,BTW,Happy Valentines Day, Bella

My blue collection

2010-02-09T21:03:00.002+08:00

Levi's Watch (:

Blue Organizer (:

Blue Wallet

Blue Pencilbox

Dickie's Blue Bag

Thats my blue collection above..awesome riteee???ahahhaha..thats all lorgh..ooh and the watch is limited ed..ahhaha..byeeee

a hero lies in you

2010-02-08T21:44:00.000+08:00

My favourite girl

2010-02-07T12:34:00.002+08:00

Dear Bella,i love you and this is dedicated for you

adam khoo workshop day 3

2010-02-06T22:32:00.002+08:00

it was an amazing day..at the end,i was second to present my thoughts..i called on everyone to unite as a Normal Acad stream,that they could be great like all the people in express..i told my parents bout how much i loved them,how much i loved drama as a CCA..and i made people think..i hope so..mum was already crying,Leroy was just listening and all my friends were either crying or cheering me on and i did all these with not a shed of a tear..only bcoz i was keeping my cool..you wnat pictures??check out ayunie's blog aites??im tired..so eyah..byeeee

adam khoo workshop day 2

2010-02-05T22:35:00.003+08:00

well,we cried again today..and Leeroy brought us to meet a person whom always had been there for us..who cried,laughed,sing with us..ourself..we imagined talking to our "other self" and my other self said how dare you..how dare yous top daring the impossibble..and i cried,begged for forgiveness..ive shut this person out for 6 years..and tday,i let him in again..i cant give a shit abotu what people say..im fat,im a bad actor??whatever..im NA??watever..i wont bother coz i hvae no more low self esteem..lastly friends,heres i song i love..

Hero-Mariah Carey

Adam Khoo Workshop Day 1

2010-02-04T22:45:00.003+08:00

we did refelections at the end of tday's session
we had to write what we really wanted to achieve in life
i didnt stumble on anything emotional
except when i wrote:"TO BE THE BESTEST FRIEND I CAN EVER BE"
i cried..coz the first thing that came to my mind was you,Mirrah
i was thinking how i had hurt you
how insensitive i was.
if you were hoping Adam Khoo made me realize,
it certainly did make me appreciate

P.S:Congrats ayuni for getting you know what..

Adam Khoo workshop

2010-02-03T19:58:00.002+08:00

nhahah..fer adam khoo tmrw,i'll be wearing jeans,black shoes and class t shirt,then i'll try to spike my hair..ahahaha..duno..shud i spike it up??stil duno..later people say..perasan sey..ahha..well imd ead happy..my number 1 valentine on Fb is no other than Mai!!!!My dearest most loving godsister..i miss you leh..long time we never spend quality time....hahah..ok..yeha thats it k??see you guys soon..

ILY

2010-02-02T21:52:00.003+08:00

Ure my Bellla,
my one and only Bella
whom alhtough i seem to not love anymore,
i still do..
to the person who never fails to make me smile and cheer up
to the one whom i love truly as my heart can
to the one person whom iw ould be shy to approach..
i love you..

drama was the bomb

2010-02-01T22:26:00.002+08:00

argh!!!!Drama was awesome just now..did scene 1-3 and it was awesome..tmrw julius wants to cover scenes 4-6 and friday scene 7..theres of course one sad thing about friday..im gonna miss drama training coz of adam khoo..oh dear!!!!haha..still cant differentiate the difference between how kuang ho is in human form and how he is in immortal form..i cant forget that..must remember..it was awesome that i didnt care that we overshot till 6.30pm..Feeq and mai were absent together with mirrah..Feeq had cramps,mai had sore throat i think and mirrah,food poisoning..get well soon Dramanians!!!!ah..tmrw nrmal day at school..but got POA..ah,sucks sey but then got drama & f&n so it makes my day i guess..hahaha..alrightee..thats all fer an update..byeeee!!!!!!

Memories!!!

2010-01-31T12:41:00.006+08:00

Firstly,to Mirrah,im sorry fer being shallow
but i would like the truth
moving on..found this pics on my thumdrive so i quickly uploaded the whole collection into facebook..yup the SYF & SM days..in which i miss alot..ahaha..ok..so im just gonna take people's opinion into my heart and then like make gd use of their comments be it good or bad..the how must go on..for once i think ive made a good decision,let the matter rest..u know,some others r saying that im always finding fault or people's wrongs..but wateva..kapoosh..yeah hell yeah,from now on,its gonna be I instead of WE..hah,..ok later wathcing movie with tian poh..random..we used to hang out during the holidays last year and i guess wiht been great friends..ooh and surely most people who probably know me would think that im trying to bribe our SM..im not..its just a mvie..and is it just me or is it that some people whove always washed their hands over conflicts r finally getting involved..WOW!!!astonishing news..it is great to know isnt it??im gonna get a phonecall soon..its just an instinct..

forget it

2010-01-30T16:37:00.002+08:00

Forget it,
i dont care what you want to say,say it all you want
bcoz even if i try,
everybody else would just side with you
so i swear to forget watever dat has happenned
and just go on and carry out my duty as an actor..thats all

i thought we were friends,i thought wrong

2010-01-29T21:45:00.002+08:00

you smiled and congratulated me when i got my role as kuang ho
yet now,you give me the cold shoulder
you talk badly behind my back
you shamed me in front of the Ensemble,
and you think its funny?
besties always look out fer each other
fine,im not President material,
fine,im not main lead material
but you have no guts coz u didnt tell me to my face
u act,all this while maybe all ure sweet words were just a facade
ya lah,setakat budak G what ritee??
This budak G will memorize his lines and excel as kuang ho
dont think i dnt know,
u chose to be SM bcoz u wanted to command people
you are simply jealous of me
i dont know what i did wrong to deserve this treatment
so tell me truthfully ,NUR MIRRAH AMIT,
am i your friend??was i ever your bestie????
or was it only games??
you think i like being Kuang Ho??
you think i enjoy being in the spotlight??
I DIDNT HURT YOU IN ANY WAY AT ALL,
I NEVER WANTED ANY OF THIS TO HAPPEN
ANSWER ME!!!!
I NEVER ENVIED YOU,LOOKED DOWN ON YOU
BUT YOU DO..
WTH IS URE PROBLEM??

Drama is all i need

2010-01-28T22:40:00.002+08:00

i wish i could have drama training every single day of the week,i dnt mind coming back for saturdays and sundays..a lot has changed from the last time i blogged although its really a short period of time..ive noticed and observed people so intently that at a glance,i know if the person is honest with his/her opinions..ok fine..so what if im starting to wear perfume???well when i stink,you complain and when i use perfume,u also complain..btw,friends dont say mean things that hurt people..so much of your promises..yeah right..see what i mean??promises are never in one piece,always broken..and it seems im an invisible wall but who am i supposed to tell it to??my only happinness is drama,the difficulty of memorizing my lines,the excitement,that laughter..i used to have tons to talk about to friends,but now it seems i dnt have anything in common..ive changed so much that i tell only myself what i really feel,and its like killing me..but cnt tell anyone coz theyre focused on their "N" Levels..so what am i to do??i admit,ive distanced myslef from tons of people,but its for their own good,i dnt wanna fight anymore..i dont wanna whine,i want to face it by myself and make me stronger..thats all but i need support..that support is drama..its all i need,its all i'll ever have..

HIATUS

2010-01-27T21:18:00.005+08:00

be right back,being very low in life
im vulnerable
on hiatus
until i get back to blogging,
take care dear readers